SO TODAY I WENT THROUGH WHAT PEOPLE SOMETIMES CALL AN AWAKING.
I JUST CALL IT FORGETTING WHY I STAY IN MY HEAD.
WERE FOR THE LIFE OF
ME I CAN’T REMEMBER WHY I THOUGHT MY HEAD WOULD BE A SAFE PLACE TO
BE IN THIS LIFE.
IT HAS ONLY JUST GOTTEN ME BY. THAT AND A MULTITUDE OF
THINGS I ENJOY.
COMFORT IS GOING TO BE THE DEATH OF ME,
I KEEP THINKING WHY DO I NOT JUMP OFF THE CLIFF OF AMBITION AND GO FOR THE THINGS I THINK I WANT.
WHY, ITS BECAUSE ITS NOT A CLIFF. IT’S A GOD DAMN MOUNTAIN WERE YOU CLIMB STEP BYSTEP, INCH BYINCH, DULL BY DULL.
ALL OR NOTHING HAS BEEN MY PATH AND FOR THAT I AM UNTHANKFUL, SINCE IT
FEELS LIKE A PIE IN THE MOUTH OR A PIE IN THE FACE.
I AM LUCKY I LEARNED TO TAKE BOTH WITH A SMILE.
SO WHY DO I NOT CHANGE MY PATH ONCE AGAIN.
BUT REALLY THAT’S JUST IT.
I WILL BE DOING WHAT I ALWAYS DO.
A LITTLE JIG TO KEEP’EM GUESSING WHEN REALLY I HAVE FALLEN INTO A PLACE OF TOTAL STOIC WAITING.
THUS ENSURING AN UN-ENTITLED GLORY IN A RACE THAT WON’T MATTER ANYWAY.
I DO SEE A GLIMMER OF SOME PURITY THAT IS FOREVER PERFECT
THAT ISN’T ME ORYOU,
AND YET I LOVE IT LIKE I LOVE YOU.
