SO TODAY I WENT THROUGH WHAT PEOPLE SOMETIMES CALL AN AWAKING.
I JUST CALL IT FORGETTING WHY I STAY IN MY HEAD. WERE FOR THE LIFE OF
ME I CAN’T REMEMBER WHY I THOUGHT MY HEAD WOULD BE A SAFE PLACE TO
BE IN THIS LIFE.
IT HAS ONLY JUST GOTTEN ME BY. THAT AND A MULTITUDE OF
THINGS I “ENJOY”.
COMFORT IS GOING TO BE THE LIFE OF ME, WHEN
REALLY I THINK I WANT IT TO BE MY DEATH.
I KEEP THINKING WHY DO I NOT JUMP OFF THE CLIFF OF AMBITION AND GO FOR THE THINGS I THINK I WANT.
WHY, ITS BECAUSE ITS NOT A CLIFF. IT’S A GOD DAMN MOUNTAIN WERE YOU CLIMB STEP BY STEP, INCH BY INCH, DULL BY DULL.
ALL OR NOTHING HAS BEEN MY PATH AND FOR THAT I AM UNGRATEFUL, SINCE IT
FEELS LIKE A PIE IN THE MOUTH OR A PIE IN THE FACE.
I AM LUCKY THOUGH, I LEARNED TO TAKE BOTH WITH A SMILE.
SO WHY DO I NOT CHANGE MY PATH ONCE AGAIN,
THE THING IS I THINK I WILL BUT REALLY THATS JUST IT.
I WOULD BE DOING WHAT I ALWAYS DO.
A LITTLE JIG TO KEEP’EM GUESSING WHEN REALLY I HAVE FALLEN INTO A PLACE OF TOTAL STOIC WAITING.
THUS ENSURING AN UN-ENTITLED GLORY IN A RACE THAT WONT MATTER AT ALL.
I DO SEE A GLIMMER OF SOME LIGHT THAT IS FOREVER THERE.
THAT ISN’T ME OR YOU, AND YET I LOVE IT LIKE I LOVE YOU AND ME.
